loneliness

I know I'm lonely when confiding in someone is foreign
When a phone book lacks any prospects
When a text, an acknowledgement, or a name is rare

Loneliness is sitting in a room, three a.m.
With nothing but circling thoughts of darkness and defeat
When you really have no one to talk to

And it's not about being with someone or needing affection, and wanting to be loved
It's about knowing my loneliness is something to appreciate
To know I'm not the only one experiencing the same thing

It's about being comfortable and confident in my thoughts
Whether it be the darkest, deepest, or the saddest
It's knowing I can cure the loneliness with progressive and willing acceptance

I know when loneliness subsides
As someone assures and validates my existence
That my heart is hardened but can be repaired

I'm not talking about being less alone by having someone
I'm talking about not having to explain myself constantly
This exhausting rap, play-by-play bullshit for people to "understand" me better

It's not about pity or sympathy
It's about true connection and recognition
It's about the merging of two alone souls
Embracing each other's needs and losses

08-2013