preparing for another day
I decide to wash away my impurities
that have lingered on from yesterday

I can always count on warm water
To cleanse both mind and body
bringing death to all that bothers

I let it all go: dead skin and toxins
shedding whatever keeps me dirty and faltered
I want purity; anything to flee from old sins

citrus undertones and natural pheromones

enhancing my natural scent is surely sweet

a spray and gentle rub around my delicate bones

what a nice little deed

sip + piss

why care about what you're drinking
when it all ends up in porcelain, flushed away
brown liquids waiting to turn into yellow liquids
it's all garbage

why develop a taste and be serious
all for something your tongue tastes for five seconds
all for some stupid roasted beans
it's all garbage

rocks are lucky
they get picked up, skipped, and rest anywhere in the sea
some will go far, some will only make it for a little bit
either way, they always sink and remain unbothered

how nice it would be to be a flat rock, perfect for soaring
always guaranteed a nice ride because you're most ideal
what's better than that?

sinking is not the biggest worry either
the bottom is your habitat

water and sand is so grand
let me go lay like a rock, be comfortable in the ground
unnoticed, in peace, nowhere to be found

10-2013

lucid

A shaky stance and tainted soul projects mystery
Fuzzy flashbacks of what was once realized
Disappears into the black hole, never to be found

I struggled and couldn't make means of forever
I strived to make clear of questionable events
I yearn for clear skies and only receive the gloom doom

Overcast of confusion and sadness trail on
I'm left empty, unanswered, and unsatisfied
I'm being dealt cards of strategic devious acts

Scratching at a stubborn scab, I become anxious
I'm only wishing to bleed so I can kill all that is unpure

7-2013

elude

How does one deal with the pains of reality?
Do they confide in loved ones to remedy it all?

We all have a means to de-stress and bandage wounds

But I ask you this: what's the difference of one's choice of poison to another's?

What constitutes as extreme and mild?

Is the remedy evading all boundaries?

We can't rid of the desire to run away

But I ask you this: does one absolutely need to feed the urge to escape?

Today, I chose to elude all negativity

In what medium, I cannot say

I'll save that for the history books

But in the meantime, leave me be in my cool escape

7-2013

Lucy Love

The overflowing water cleansed the hyper sensations of our day
We found ourselves in our happy place at the edge of the bay
Lucy amplified the lives of three strays

We endured unknown seconds at different peaks
We didn't care about our troubled pasts or what had us so bleak
We journeyed and arrived, and grasped onto what we first came to seek

We walked together; side-by-side
We swung together; genuine smiles
We loved each other; hearts aligned

02-2013

?

If I had a slice of your pie, can I easily go for seconds?
If I gave you a gift because I wanted to, what would you reckon?
Would my presence and my words have you beckoned?

If I kissed your neck and whispered in your ear, would you weaken at the knees?
Your soft skin, impeccable collarbones, and lovely hips; are they hard to please?
Would I find you in my room, on my bed with messy sheets?

Do you want me and only me?
Top, bottom, or side: where would you want me to be?
Will you allow me to stare into your mysterious eyes or will I have to pay a fee?

Are you going to ask me the pleasures of my own?
To explore my fantasies, to see what I willfully condone?
Or is my eager heart completely and prematurely blown?

Where are you?
When will this ensue?
I'm all sorts of blue.

01-2013

emerald city

I left my heart in a different state earlier this year
I roamed around, soaked in the crisp winter air, and allowed time to stop and die
I found myself as I lost myself
Amongst the tall evergreens, the blue bay, and cold breeze
I sensed a true freedom
To be the best version of myself
Unafraid of what was to come
Taking on the days like I was completely renewed

Dare I say it... I was happy
Happy alone, happy carefree, happy with no said agenda
Nobody knew who I was or what my story was
I didn't have to explain the reasons for my destination
I breathed in untainted air and saw unforgettable skies
I ruled and owned my own independence

Nobody knew where I was on a map
I only had a date with one
And that was me and the ever-true Emerald City
I'll come back for you
I swear I will

11-2013

haven

there's a place where I love being

and it proves to be more than a place

but also a mindset in which I feel the most free

the most comfortable and at ease

many would say it's their home

but what is "home"?
and is "home" where your heart is or where the people in your life are?

I invest in people and my mind will engulf on your mind

then I scout for safety; safety in you, in the environment

in the way I think when I'm with you and how you make me feel.

for me, "home" is anywhere I'm in the moment,

completely unbothered, free, and 100% myself.

it could be alone or it could be sharing with someone

my safety and choice of retreat is in you

where your heart lies

where your mind wanders

where you take a step

I want to be in and around it all.

11-2013